There is a beautiful song from one of my favorite songwriters, Gorden Jenson. The song is about Unanswered Questions.
I'm reading a book When Bad Things Happen to Good People. Yes, bad things do happen to good people. The author has lived the same questions that I am living. He is not afraid to delve into the deep abyss which most never have to look down into and see its darkness.
At this point, I'm only in the fourth chapter. My socks have blown off my feet and are across the room because he's nailing every thought and question with which I've wrestled in the past month and year. Of course, I am not able to explain all of it yet. Suffice it to say that God doesn't cause everything and all of our problems are not because we deserve it. Once I can put the thoughts into my own words, I'll explain.
There is a psychology word in the Greek language for the feeling of guilt and relief one feels when a terrible event happens in someone else's life. Yes, I felt that relief before knowing that it wasn't my child who had died. No parent on the other side ever believed it would be them who would live with the pain of loss for the remainder of their life.
I'm writing this prematurely and not explaining it at all. I just want you to know that I am relieved that I'm not alone in thinking there is something off in the balance and fairness of my faith. There is a solution or answer to the mystery with which I wrestle.
Be watching for the next blog when I can begin to put into words those thoughts I'm forming. And in the meantime, ask God, our Help, to be there for people who are in the middle of chaos such as perhaps Job faced. He may not fix everything but He is comfort. Sadly, our grieving minds have trouble wrapping this around the pain. Your friend or family member may need a gentle nudge and reminder with lots of love.
Offer them the book of which I'm scratching out answers.
It may save their life and mind.
