Grief and Pain

The night is late.  I have been floating thru the days and evenings in a state of numbness now for several days.  Like in an anesthesia stupor.

My soul skitters away from the pain when the shadow of death brushes past.  How do I embrace this pain?

It must be done.  All of the experts state that fact.  And, conversely, no one person grieves  in the same way.  Despair, agony, gloom, pain, excruciating pain.  There is no recourse around this.  Walk directly thru it.

In some way, grief is like death.  Death occurs individually and randomly.  It is appointed unto all of us.  Some seems kinder.  Some colder.  But all will die.  There is no recourse around this.  All will walk directly into the shadow of death.

Grief is a journey.  Death is the other journey.  The two are merely parallel.  Never will these meet on the earth.

So until the heaven, I am on a journey parallel and separate from my daughter.