Everybody journeys the road of loss uniquely. It is impacted, influenced, yanked about by their relationship with the person they've lost, the circumstances of the death, the age, the role of the deceased in their life, whether it was traumatic, sudden, or the end of a long life or a long sickness...and the list goes on.
I lost Megan within a year of the end of our family unit of 26 years. We grief-speaking people call this compounded grief. Divorce is painful at any time and all the humans impacted in that family unit deal with their hurt, anger, or sorrow differently. My family unit reeled and we were trying to steady ourselves to go forward in the new normal after split families.
Megan left us in the middle of the reeling and rocking. If God had not given me a specific vision, my story may have gone differently. It is such a profoundly God given word and vision in my heart and mind that I can not explain it with clarity. I can tell you that within about a day of her passing I had a loving and positive confirmation that all was well. I call it a vision because I honestly can't remember if it was a dream from sleep or if it became part of my subconcious like a vision. I can tell you what she said and where we were walking and were about to enter. It wasn't creepy like she "came" to me. It was a gift of my viewing a visit with her as it viewing a dream or vision. As I watched or saw the visit between us, immediate peace and comfort came to me.
I have held this close to my heart and shared with very few people. Yet, at 11 plus years from Megan's passing, I want to share more of the inner road of grief. I understand that many questions remain for most of us grievers and most especially for those who lose someone earlier in life than is expected. And, questions do remain for me. Those will be delved into with other posts. But, I believe that God will bring us unique comfort if we are willing to see it or feel it.
Prayers in this season as you celebrate and cry. Remember, it is okay to enjoy some love and find a little happy when possible. It makes the darkness not so dark. And, begins your feet down the path to survival and eventually healing. I share love with someone that is far away and I can't express it to them now. So, I share my heart and offer you love from My Father. He came for the suffering. Christmas is for us.
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